What does Esther think of Buddy? What does she want from him? What does she want him to think of her?

Esther thinks that buddy does not hold true to what he says he is. She thinks that he tries to come across as all innocent and that he really is not. At the prom he is a gentleman and comes across as a great guy who is innocent. However when her and Buddy decide to get a little bit more intimate she finds that he is not the man that he says. She finds that he is actually kind of a skeez ball that has slept with a random hotel waitress somewhere around thirty times. At first she wanted him to be that perfect guy that would be with her and be her first guy but now she finds him in a matter revolting. She also originally wanted him to think that she was the perfect girl and that she was great and all but when she finds out that he is not innocent she throws all of the things that she wanted to be for him out the window.